Thank you Anu for your wonderful very touching blog. "Some times the dancing stops" yes it stopped for me! I had to weep for those parents and families of those teachers! i was in prayer crying to God on therir behalf.Yes Anu Psalm 46, fits so perfectly to this terrible tragedy to focus on Jesus and His precious promises in this psalm.Such a wonderful pslam and we must all memorize it and hold on to it.I have experienced Him as my refuge and strength, and a very present help whem i was in deep trouble and also in the hardest of times in my life which have been in plenty never ending even now!.
The hardest was seeing ny darling son, My only precious child Vinoth die in my arms at the ICU at Navaloka hospital on the 13th of April 1990 and when the director of the hospital called Gnane and me to a side a day befor he died and explained to us that he may not survive! Vinoth was conciously suffering then! finding it difficult to take a breath. inspit of it he was constantly calling for us "Mamma, dadda carry me" when actually we couldnt as he had tubes all over him. but we put our arms under his body and held him on the ICU bed as if we were carryin him. He aso asked for his pillow that He called "Babba". I remember sponging him and powdering him which he loves! putting eaudicologn and combed his hair, and changed his clothes.Oh Anu it was so hard and painful! it seems like just the other day.every thing is so fresh in my mind! very painful memories!. But what i want to say is that truely it was the Angels with us giving us courage!. Our God who was our refuge and strength and a very present help" as psalm 46 says! Every verse in that psalm was so appropriate and right up to now! I can understand the pain! worse though in the shooting of these innocent kids at connect. and loving teachers! Yes You are right God is soverign! we cannot ask why God? though I asked him many a times! when our prayer to heal Vinoth was answered in the opposite way! I had to hold on to that"God is soverign" when he had decided to take vinoth to himself! I tell you Anu what pain to see a little coorps with a liitle 4yr old child in it! and my sweet little son!
Jesus is with us! thats been the secret of coping through all the dark times!
Thank you anu, Love Chandra
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Thanks for reading my blog and I'm glad it resonated with you. I am so sorry for all the trauma you too have been through with little Vinoth's death over 22 years ago. I can't imagine how much you would have suffered. I remember clearly Sal telling me about it because it occurred when she was with us in England. We felt so much for you in your pain. One day you will be re-united with him Chandra dear. Cling onto that thought when you feel sad. One day you will see him again.
Glad to hear how Psalm 46 blesses you too. Thanking God for Jesus and the hope He gives us even in our darkest times.
God bless you my friend.
Much love and prayers,
Subject: Sometimes the dancing stops
Yes, the 'dancing has stopped for many' and how our Father must grieve too. My close friend Priya who studied in the US had a batch mate ,Joel Bacon. She got news that his little daughter Charlotte was also one of the kids killed in the shooting. Naturally she is in shock and wanted us to pray for this fam and all the others. None of this makes sense and yet we know that He certainly is our Refuge and Strength. May we feel their loss and pain as parents and families.
I think too of many who have lost a loved one this year and will miss them at Christmas. Pray too for a young colleague who lost her baby during her pregnancy (about 5 months) and is feeling it very much. Also a class mate from LC Sithy Mushin who lost her 32 years old son (they live in DC) of a heart attack last week!
Yes, Anu there was much weeping in Rammah....as they and we weep along with them may we share the love of God and stand with them in their pain as He came to give us hope. Thanks for that reminder. Glad God met you in your 'storm'!
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Thanks so much for your caring response to my blog this week. I am so sorry to hear about Priya's batchmates daughter Charlotte who too was killed in this horrific shooting. If we feel so badly for people we don't know - she must grieve so much more. May God hold her close. And be with the hurting families. Just printed out all the names of those who died so I can pray for their families.
Just prayed for your colleague who lost her baby and for Sithy who lost her son. How awful. And he was only 32? I'm so sorry Sal.
May our Father be close to all who grieve. And may we do what we can to bless and help our hurting world.
Much love and hugs,
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Thanks so much for this blog post which encouraged and inspired me, as is always the case when I read your writing.
Thank you also for your example of persevering no matter how hard the situation is - I am learning a lot from your life.
May God continue to use your talents to glorify His name and be a blessing to many others.
Loads of love,
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Thanks for your very encouraging words. Thank you for reading my blog and thank you too for taking the time and trouble to respond to it. Bless you for your loving words which blessed me very much.
Loads of love and loads of thanks to a very special daughter-niece,
Aunty Anu xo
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Though I may not read it on a Monday morning, when I do get round to reading it, your blog is always an inspiration to me. I liked the 'last flower' and last week's too- helped me think of God's perspective on things and not our little concerns.
p.s.- loved the pictures of Asela too and brought back memories of seeing him like that- except for the last one as a handsome young man with his father in full suit!!
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Thanks so much for taking the time to read my blog. And thanks also for taking time to respond to it.
I do remember those happy times when our boys were little! :) Have pictures of you pregnant with Ashwin on Asela's 1st b'day.
Bless you for your encouragement my friend.
Subject: The Last Flower
Thank you for your excellent blog post. Yes, I totally agree how much we need to persevere in our walk with the Lord, even when we don't see the immediate answers to our prayers. Also to endure patiently when we are faced with trials.
It is great to hear of your work with Refresh, it must have been lovely to celebrate and thank God for those 6 years He has used you to help parents of special needs kids, who need love and support. I too encounter kids with special needs and even teach piano to one or two, it is so lovely to see them develop in their music. I often find these kids very creative and gifted. Yes, it is sad when parents of kids with special needs feel judged and misunderstood.
Sorry to hear that you lost all your guest book comments.
Keep on writing dear Anu, love reading your inspiring blogs. I have been reading them all, but haven't had the time to comment on them recently.
Lots of love
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Thanks so much for taking the trouble to read my blog and to respond too. So sweet of you. Thanks for all your previous responses - which I am so sorry disappeared within the blink of an eye recently.
That was so good to hear that you encounter kids with special needs whom you teach music to. Wonderful. Bless you Dashika - I can well understand that you would make a kind and wonderful teacher to these kids and to others too.
Thanks for your encouragement. I shall take it and keep writing. Bless you my friend.
Thanks again for all your loving input into my life.
Much love and every blessing to you dear friend.